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Labour looming. 2006-01-20 - 11:32 a.m. My midwife told me yesterday that I am technically �term� now. Apparently, once one�s completed 37 weeks then we�re considered �good to go�. This is a freaky thought. While my thoughts are being pulled towards the ever-more-imminent labour, I�m trying to focus on the product more than the process. I realize this sounds like I�m sticking my fingers in my ears, all �La la LA. I can�t HEAR YOU.� But the fact is that labour will happen no matter what and I�ve already read and learned a lot about it and made some basic decisions about how I�d want to handle it, so dwelling on it too much at this point will, I think, only scare me. In case anyone�s wondering, yes, I am okay with the thought of using drugs. I am open to whatever will allow me to have the most positive birth experience I can and I am the only judge that counts when defining what makes a positive birth experience for me. Until I read things like �don�t feel you have failed if you ask for an epidural,� it had never occurred to me that I, or anyone, would feel bad about such a thing. You do what you�ve gotta do at a time like that, and that�s all there is to it for me. This does not mean I�ll be asking for drugs in the parking lot before I set foot in the hospital (though it doesn�t mean I won�t either), I�ll just see how long I can go before I say �that�s it, give me something.� My reasons for waiting to see how long I can go without are actually much stronger than my beliefs around pain meds themselves: --------------------------------- Oh, before I forget, I have an appointment to follow up with the �high risk unit� this Monday. It�s not that my latest results have been bad � in fact there�s been an improvement in both my blood pressure and the protein content of my urine since I went off work � it�s just because I�m considered to be in a �gray area� so they want to make sure that everything looks good and I�m confirmed to be a healthy woman with the expectation of a normal, low-risk birth. They want to, as they told me, �Make sure all the Ts are crossed and the Is are dotted.� This will mean another ultrasound (yay?) and some more blood work (ick). I don�t anticipate anything bad coming of it but I�ll keep you posted.
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Anyway, there�s nothing to do but pack my hospital bag and wait and see how everything goes. I have friends that have done it without any drugs (one on purpose (�They told me that I should ask when it became unbearable, but it never got unbearable.�), one by accident because she waited too long) and I have friends that wouldn�t even think of doing such a �crazy� thing. I have no idea what my birth will end up like at this point. All I know for sure, Grommet is not staying in the Belly indefinitely so I�ll be meeting my son or daughter within a few weeks, no matter what. Whoa. I�m going to be a MOM! SOON!
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