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The 200-pound Baby Syndrome.

2006-02-20 - 12:20 p.m.

I knew that babies like being held. One thing I had not expected was how much I would like holding Grommet. I often fall victim to what Ive come to call The 200-pound Baby Syndrome. It starts out innocently enough Im feeding her, then she falls asleep stretched across my lap in my arms. Then, I marvel at how beautiful and angelic she looks, and how peacefully shes sleeping. At that point I realize that I cant bear to put her down. What if I disturb her and she wakes up unhappy? What if she feels rejected by being taken away from my warm body and put down in a not-yet-warmed bed? Before I know it, I start to have thoughts like, J will be home in only an hour he can take her from me then and put her down for me so that I wont be the one to have to do it.

Its like the baby weighs 200 pounds and I cant lift her to budge her off me. I know I should doing so would let me write a journal entry, or shower, or eat something but I just cant bring myself to do it.

Watching us together, my mom said, Its too bad she wont remember these tender moments. In a way I agree, but at least I will remember them. After all, Im counting on them getting me through the period of time just after she learns the word No.

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Psst, Nancy may be having her baby RIGHT NOW! Go wish her luck!

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